planet lez

Today is not a really happy day. Mom's going away, and I guess that's the only reason. And I think that's the reason why I sarted sleepwalking again, the last time I was around 8 or 9 and I don' remmber why I started doing it, I've heard that maybe it was because I was worried about mom leaving for work, she is a singer and used to work even on week nights in a restaurant. So maybe I had that same feeling again knowing that she'll be 10 hours away from me. I woke up this morning and my pillows had no pillow cases and other stuff was out of place too, and the only theory I have is that I was sleepwalking... The only thing that makes me happy is that I know the future will be much better, I can foresee lots of love coming my way, that future I long for, my unreachable reachable love, watching Liam grow and my mom coming back. But for now it's a bit lonely and sad in my planet.

Aren't moms great? My mom's great, we don't always see eye to eye, but at least we don't live together, that's what keeps us as best friends, funny huh? She's really a great human being, I couldn't have chosen a better person to raise me. The sad thing is that we don't realize this until we've moved out, or they're gone, OR they move away and you realize they won't be there as often... In spite of this, I think I have this now great relationship with mom, because we live apart. Somehow having someone telling you what's good for you all day is uncomfortable, you know it's all about the love, but it still annoys you, then you think; "I'll never be that way with my children". Yeah right, that's what your parents used to say too! I just hope I have the strength to raise Liam the way my mom raised me... us... all four of us.